I'm trying desperately to not have expectations, to not build up a false, romanticized idea of how my time there is going to be.
I want to ready myself, to be prepared to serve without hinderances, to live in that moment - in the here and now.
Yet, I see so much in me that is not good, so much that does not please our Father. And I'm fighting those things with all that I am, striving towards sanctification and holiness, keeping my eyes on the prize - our home, our glorious God, standing perfected by Him, through Him, for Him: "for my name's sake."
Father, break me of all that is not pleasing to you. Increase in me. Give me eyes to see myself in my depravity, grace and love in their fullness, the cross in its glory. May all I do be for You. I cling to the promise of your faithfulness and goodness. Pour yourself on me. May my life be an overflow of You.
